Yesterday was probably the most discouraging day I can remember. It had its victories and accomplishments-- and a couple of great conversations, but a couple of issues were so overpowering that I truly felt like I wanted to quit-- my job, my family, everything!
Coincidence?
Just the day before our pastor spoke about how one of Satan's schemes is getting us to the point of wanting to quit and how to deal with it. I sat there thinking, "I've never wanted to quit... that must be as low a feeling as there is. I'm glad I've never felt that!" Little did I know what I would deal with the next day!
I was so overwhelmed with the feeling that I didn't want to spend time or talk with anyone. I kept to myself. I took myself out for a meager dinner-- alone. I came home and read, then went to bed at 8.
Today I hope to keep in mind whose team I'm on (the Lord's) and get over it. I work for him, live for him, and love for him. And really, he has blessed me so big! That feeling was way out of line!
The Bible says "Our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the ...spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms." (Eph 6:12, NIV) When things seem that overpowering, recognize they may not be from your own thoughts or feelings... they may be from unseen dark spiritual forces.
For those who deal with that level of discouragement, now I get it. I'm so sorry you deal with that. God loves you; he loves me. He has great things in store for us! And even though there are situations in our lives we wish were different, he cares. The key, I think, is to remember that, and to press on.